Sunday, August 02, 2009

Note: Avoid reading this post if you don't wanna waste time, or don't like long pointless rants.

Been wanting to blog for daaayyyysss but blogger kept cocking up. So many back-dated entries I wanna post now. So finally, blogger decides to work properly today. This is probably the only thing that has gone right for me today. How pathetic is that?

Last night, I called my mum to tell her I won't be going home this weekend and I'll probably go back either this coming monday or next weekend. Then she merrily tells me she won't be around next weekend because she'll be going to Genting with my sis and 2 aunts. THEN she continues on with..

Mom: Oh ya, I forgot to ask if you wanna go. Totally forgot about you.
Me: Huh why you nv tell me? I wanna go leh!
Mom: Errr... Aiya I forgot. We booked the air tickets already leh how?
Me: ..........
Mom: Ahhh ok ok I ask your aunt again whether we can add another booking.
Me: K, update me.

MY MOTHER DOES NOT LOVE ME. She probably even forgot she has another daughter.

But okay, moving on to today. First I suffer from insomnia (again) then when I finally fell asleep, my idiot of a brother calls me to wake me up for no reason. He thought mum was going to come pick me so he called to wake me up, but I wasn't even fucking going home. So I put down the phone and go back to sleep. A few minutes later, my mum calls me again to ask me whether I confirm wanna go Genting cause if I want, she'll change her ticket to my name so I can go. Gee good golly, great plan mom. Wtf, of course I wouldn't go if it meant you couldn't go la. So I said forget it.. Since I think they'd all wanna go to the casino and I wouldn't be able to enter it since I'm only 20. AND THIS IS DAMN WIN. She asked me.. "You're 20 only meh?" ...... WOW MA. THANKS. Now I'm even more convinced I was adopted or picked up from a garbage dump.

So fuck it. I said forget it and went back to sleep. Except I couldn't, because ALL my cousins decided that late Saturday morning is a good time to be at home to make a hell lot of noise. Games on MAX volume. Music on MAX volume. Their talking, screaming and laughing? That's right, also on MAX volume. Fucking kaninabeh dulan.

After all that fiasco, I somehow managed to sleep again. Only to wake up and find that someone turned my alarm clock off. I was supposed to wake up at 1, and the time then was 2.30. I needed to meet my friends in town at 3. AWESOME. So I didn't even get to eat lunch (which was already bought for me) and I had to rush off to town.

Arcade time was fine, it was fun. But dinner? Fucking hell, longest queue at Aston's I've ever seen. Fucking queue until the escalator area, wtf. So okay nvm, we waited. And in the end? Our waiting time was even longer than the time we spent actually eating our food. The only consolation was that the food there was cheap and good as usual. So afterward, we hung out till about a bit after 11. I wanted to save money so I crossed the road to take 190 from the SMU area and wtf... While crossing the road, I missed 2 empty 190's cause the bus stop was pretty far from the crossing. Fuck. So forget it, I just waited and the next bus came after more than 10mins. Even at 11 plus, the buses were FUCKING crowded. I missed 2 fucking buses before I barely managed to squeeze on the third one, what's the deal with that!?

By the time I got to Steven's Road whereby I change to 960 to go home, it was already 12. I checked the board and okay, safe. Last bus still isn't here yet. Then once the last bus came... Wow surprise surprise, it was fucking packed and I couldn't get on at all. ARGH! DON'T PEOPLE REST AT HOME ON A SATURDAY!? Everyone goes out till 12!? :@ Fuck man, in the end I had to cab home and the fucking cab ride (including midnight charge) cost me 20 fucking dollars! It's fucking ironic. In my attempt to only spend 2 dollars going home by bus, I ended up spending more than 10 times that amount. KNNBCCB I might as well have just taken the fucking train!

Whatever, I got home. I thought that once I was home, nothing else could annoy me or get me down. What wishful thinking. I went to check my usual sites. Plurk, Facebook, Blogger, Twitter etc. and wtf, Twitter led me to allkpop, which was posting articles about DBSK having problems. Lawsuits, exclusivity clauses, endorsements, slave contract, disbandment, disharmony. You name it and it was there. Fuck, that was the end of it. I literally felt like screaming my heart out. I never used to follow idols, go to concerts or collect their items/pics but now I suppose I'm a pretty hardcore fangirl. DBSK is my favourite Korean boyband and fuck I think I'll really go ballistic if they split, or if the members (except Micky, he has no talent to speak of anyway) have to end their careers due to this.

Blogging really does make a person feel a wee bit better, not much. Today is just one of those days whereby I'm super convinced someone up there doesn't like me and aims to make my life miserable, giving me all my misfortunes all at once. You know what? Just make sure that all my misfortunes cover for my friends. Since I'm already suay as it is, I don't mind taking their bad luck too. As long as you keep them smiling all the time and send the good things their way, I don't mind leading this fucked up life. I'm always emo anyway, I can live with more of it.

I was going to blog about the other things I wanted to mention the past few days all at one shot. But it's 5.20am and I'm super tired. I'll leave those for another time. Goodnight and goodbye.

no where, at all. 4:50 am

about the girl.

Sunday, August 02, 2009

next best thing to kbox: cbox.

the past that haunts her.

thanks.