Saturday, May 30, 2009

I am really tired but I can't sleep for some really *beeped* up reasons. The only thing making me happy right now is my new Eeyore mini bolster and that is seriously pathetic. I've had to stop myself from losing my temper and rationality a few times today and thankfully, I've been successful.

I really have no time and energy to deal with anything else other than work at the moment so please people, spare me. You, I had no choice. And you, leave me alone, don't talk to me again.

I'm going to try to lie down and force myself to sleep.

And oh, get well soon Ghastly. <33

no where, at all. 1:57 am

Tuesday, May 26, 2009

I've been pretty busy these past few days since I just started working as an intern at SYOGOC. And when I get home, I'm usually just pretty tired and can't be bothered to do much. Is this how office workers feel all the time? Cause that'd be pretty sad and I don't ever wanna live that kinda lifestyle. -.-

I had to get Photoshop again for this job so I downloaded the Photoshop and Illustrator 30-day trials. I put the icons together, only to realise they spell out P-sai. Yes, nose shit, lol.

Then, I had to do research for the Olympic sports and when I was researching for Taekwondo, I found that the Taekwondo federation really doesn't have talent in naming organisations, lol.

WTF, literally.

no where, at all. 11:33 pm

Monday, May 25, 2009

Fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck!!

What a bad first day at work! I seriously cannot tolerate people who just delegate work, just talk and don't do work! AND PLEASE. If you have something for us to do.. Can you not wait until end of the day then give us? FA KE NI LAH SERIOUSLY!

PLUS, It's obviously impossible for just 1 intern to complete a WHOLE event's contents which add up to about 30-40 pages of words in just 3 working days. DO YOU FUCKING HAVE BRAINS!? You wait until end of Friday then assign to her, now you want it by tomorrow!? FA KE NI AGAIN!

AND TA MA DE. You pay me peanuts and you expect me to do fucking everything for you!? THEN YOU TAKE SALARY FOR WHAT!? JUST TO BUY HAMSTER FEED!? I don't need you coming over to my desk regularly to act nice to me and ask me if I've eaten lunch BECAUSE I FUCKING HATE YOU. And its really funny how the only times I see you at your desk is when you just report for work, when its lunch time and you've come back to take your bag or when its almost time to knock off. THE WHOLE DAY YOU GO WHERE!? GO FIND PEOPLE TO GOSSIP RIGHT!? GO BRING YOUR HAMSTER AROUND TO PLAY WITH OTHER PEOPLE RIGHT!? That's why everything wait until end of the day then do! Then cannot finish, push to us and make us stay back or bring home to do! KANASAI!

AND FOR YOUR FUCKING INFORMATION, there are elements in Powerpoint that I cannot change. And I'm not bragging but, I think I'm quite pro at Powerpoint so I don't need you breathing down my neck telling me to make impossible changes. WHEN I TELL YOU IT DOESN'T WORK, IT MEANS I'VE TRIED IT AND IT REALLY FUCKING DOESN'T WORK/DOESN'T LOOK NICE.

Also, you are such a fake. Stop trying to act nice to people because actually, we all know what you're like and NOBODY LIKES YOU. If you think you can boss interns around like slaves, well THINK AGAIN. If this goes on, I'll just keep on doing my work sloppily, or even not do it at all just so you won't get to claim credit. I don't fucking care if I get scolded or fired. In fact, if this goes on, I'd HOPE AND PRAY to get fired, just so I won't be the one breaking the contract and the one losing out in the end will be YOU since there's nobody to take over my duties.

JUST YOU WAIT!

no where, at all. 10:19 pm

I really should be asleep, seeing as I have to wake up in about 6 and half hours time to get ready for my first day of work.

..... that sounded really odd. I still can't get used to the idea of me heading out to work. School never sounded so good.

Argh. I'll get through this. I must.

no where, at all. 12:23 am

Saturday, May 23, 2009

Totally snapped today.

Not cool.
_______________________

Monday's approaching.

So not cool either.

no where, at all. 11:37 pm

Thursday, May 21, 2009

Today I saw someone that looked so much like you.. The way she acted, the little gestures and habits, they were all so similar to yours. She was a bit shorter than you, but the similarity was definitely there. The way she spoke, her intonation when she was showing concern for her friend who had a tummy ache.. Exactly the same. Plus, the way she looked when she was so engrossed in reading her book looked so much like you too.

I wonder... does she think like you too?

So anyway, I got a job today.. Gonna be interning at SYOGOC starting this coming Monday doing a little bit of designing work. Just some simple designing, nothing fancy. Hope I can pull it off somehow since I'm such a designing idiot. Shall grit my teeth and do my best for the sake of my future and for the sake of better employment in future. Mum sounded quite happy about it too, so I guess this is for the best.

Nevertheless, mixed feelings about it. Maybe its just the nerves.

I was going to blog about the fun stuff today but I'm too tired and lazy so I shall put it off till another time. I'm gonna go sleep, another day out tomorrow.

Argh, CS3 please work!

no where, at all. 1:51 am

Wednesday, May 20, 2009

Feeling pretty sian about tomorrow. But oh well, some things just must be done whether I like it or not.

Today was pretty fun, even though there was a quarrel with kaopei prawning place person. Plus I'm looking forward to Thursday. Shan't elaborate since I'm in a pretty umm.. I don't even know how to describe the mood. Just.. restless.

Fuck man. Screw this shit.

no where, at all. 12:36 am

Thursday, May 14, 2009

Walao. 有没有更 sian 的。鸡蛋糕，这种天气不中暑才怪。妈的，地球要死 kiao kiao 了。

昨天终于正式毕业了。 Daddy, Ma 和 Nanny 有来参与毕业典礼。我本来应该很开心才对，可是应为睡眠不足和超级 kanina 热的天气，头一直很痛。我们还要在大热天穿着毕业袍到处走，真是要人的命。Daddy 还一直要我站在大太阳下拍照，真的是气死我了。-.- 还有昨天应为走得太匆忙，忘了和许多人拍照，哎呀真是糊涂。-.-

过后还好，和 Geri and Rick 去吃饭，喝酒，谈天，心情好多了。只是昨天 Blooie's 真的太热了，又不能开冷气，我们都快要被热死了。接着我们去了 Geri 的家一趟。真高兴！Lucky 我们又见面了！你真的是可爱到极点！可是你为什么一点都不衷心，谁肯疼你你就跑到那里。下次 Darrick 或者 Lyn 再折磨你，我是不会再救你的了！你靠你自己吧！>.>

no where, at all. 5:35 pm

Wednesday, May 13, 2009

Now that just about summarises the past few days. It also predicts what tomorrow will be like, seeing that its graduation and all. Blah.

Today wasn't so bad though, got to hang out with the girls for a bit.

Lyn I hope the bra thief seriously gets his balls kicked and turns impotent for the rest of his life until he decides life is meaningless cause he can't get his dick up even though he has hot bras to look at and then chooses to commit suicide and dies a horrible death by jumping off a building.

So cheer up!! <333

no where, at all. 2:13 am

Wednesday, May 06, 2009

I spent quite a bit of time reading through my old blog posts.

Some of them made me go, "Awww". Some of them made me go "Damn, I'm childish." Some of them made me go, "Wth I can get THIS emo?!"

Hahahah nostalgia, nostalgia. Reading through some of the stuff that happened really brought a smile to my face. All the times I spent with my friends, my juniors from Heatwave and my family, they're so precious. All of a sudden I'm glad I blogged about those times, just so I can read them again from time to time like now and be reminded of all the wonderful times. (:

Sure, there are bad posts too, but I guess I could learn from those posts. Suddenly blogging seems so much more to me than just a meaningless online diary. Shall put more effort into it. (:

P.S. Geri I just realised a lot of my old posts recorded silly stuff we did or said either when we were out or when we were talking on msn. Omg they're so lame and embarassing! DDDDD:

no where, at all. 5:11 am

Tuesday, May 05, 2009

I honestly don't think I'll be able to cope with it when it really happens.

Oh god.

Now I know how Tracy felt years ago. And to think I used to think she was loony for acting that way. Up side of this is, I get more time to mentally prepare myself than she had, let's hope it helps.

no where, at all. 5:38 am

Saturday, May 02, 2009

K I shall update, since I haven't in a while. And I finally figured out why I stopped having the urge to blog or update. It's because of this thing called PLURK. (Rollover for link) Yes, it's all Plurk's fault because after having it, I just update short notes there and get things I want to say out of my mind right there and then so I don't see the need to blog anymore.

Yanhong! Since you were saying you've been blogging too much and all of it are short ones, maybe you can try using Plurk. Less time consuming and a little more fun.. I guess?

---------------------------------------
Today has been a rather shitty day. No mood to talk to anybody in particular, which explains my absence from MSN, Plurk, Skype, gmail and whatnot. I even turned off my phone for the most part of the day until my mood got slightly better after family dinner. So much on my mind the entire day all because of one nightmare. I can't get the images out of my mind and it keeps haunting me, which kinda explains why I'm still awake now even though I didn't get to sleep much last night. I haven't had such a bad nightmare in a while, I woke up crying, shivering and drenched in cold sweat. The images were so vivid and the pain seemed so real I swear I could feel a tinge of it. Just the thought of it sends chills down my spine again.

One thing though, I couldn't seem to see the face of the girl that was in my dreams but she seemed so dear to me. It felt like she was someone really important and even though I couldn't see her face and I didn't know who she was, in my dream I still had the urge and courage to rush forward to save her no matter what. Her physique resembled some of my friends though, in which case I hope I'm wrong.

I keep telling myself, "It's just a bad dream, it's just a really really bad dream, nothing is going to happen" but I still can't seem to calm down or forget about it. Maybe it's a sign, maybe it's telling me to appreciate the people around me more. Maybe we should all go hide in caves because of an impending solar fart. Just maybe. .. okay ignore the solar fart part, the movie "Knowing" left a huge impression.

I guess here is a good place to start. To all my close friends, I love you all, even though its something I don't say. I seriously find it hard to say stuff like that even though I know its easy for some people, its just the way I am. I guess it's this constant fear that it's not reciprocated? Plus I'm just brought up in a family that doesn't ever say stuff like that to each other. Also, hugs, I like them, I have nothing against them but its just awkward sometimes?

Okay nevermind, I'm straying from the main point. Main point is I really appreciate the times we had together, the good and the bad, because it'll all turn into precious memories I'll probably never be able to replicate 10 or 20 years down the road when we're all too busy with our own lives to care about each other. Thanks for always being there for me, listening to me, nagging at me for my own good and basically just being an awesome and caring person to me. I don't say it, but I take all these into account and I really appreciate all the efforts. I try to do the same for you guys but sometimes I'm just not good enough. For that, I'm sorry.

This is getting really long-winded so I'm gonna stop and try to go sleep even though I might not have much luck. It's 3.30 and my eyes feel like they're gonna pop out soon. Night.

P.S. Esp you Ghastly, thanks for everything. <333

no where, at all. 2:37 am

about the girl.