Wednesday, February 11, 2009

I haven't had so much sleep in such a long time. I slept for 14 hours plus! That's totally awesome! And the amazing thing was that it wasn't even a weekend, it was a Monday night! BUT! As usual, there's a down side and its that fact that now I can't fall asleep and I have school in the morning. Gah crap, lol.

Recently, after the whole Acting and star-gazing-on-the-balcony fiasco at Jo's house over the weekend, I think I've found out more about what I want in the future. No, I don't mean job-wise or further studies. What I mean is.. I think I've found out what my passion truly is, something that makes me smile no matter what, something I'll love doing no matter what happens. But I know that if I make it into my profession, it'll end up making me stressed or sad in one way or another sooner or later. Therefore, this is going to stay as a passion, something I'll do in my free time, something I can look forward to doing and something I will be able to proudly teach my children (if any) about in the future.

All I can say is that.. Mother Nature has amazed me in ways I cannot possibly imagine. So many things Mother Nature gave us, they're all so beautiful and so intriguing. I've always loved Geography (the physical geog part, not human geog part) but like I said, there's a difference between when you're studying it seriously, being forced to read some text and when you're doing it out of pure interest.

It really amazes me how things just... work when it comes to nature. Take for example the formation of a volcano (I'm gonna sound geeky, but whatever). Something so destructive, something so grand and so feared, how is it formed so easily? Simply through convection, something so basic, the lava within the Earth moves and with it, moves the crust of the Earth in the form of different plates. These plates collide, intense pressure is produced and the plates have nowhere to go but up, there's a leak of molten lava from within the Earth then there you go, a volcano. What's more incredible is that it's not all about destruction, whatever Mother Nature forces upon us, there's always a reason. Sure, an eruption might kill many people but what's left of the it (the hardened lava) produces the world's best conditions for agriculture, which in turn benefits the people as well. It's just life on a bigger scale, to have losses and gains, pros and cons. And that's not the only benefit of a volcano, but I'll spare you.

Don't get me wrong, all this didn't just come to me as a sudden revelation. I've always thought of how fabulous it was, but I just never really made up my mind or thought about it seriously till now. I've always adored and looked forward to such Geography lessons and I found that everything just made sense to me, how one thing leads to another and the whole world is connected in one way or another. I've thought about it the past few days and every night, before I head home, I look up into the sky to just marvel at the grandeur of the Moon and the star(s) for a few minutes and just think... "How great would it be if the night sky was filled with countless stars?" I've made up my mind, so I guess today marks the start of my new resolve.

I want to travel the world and discover things for myself that books cannot tell me about.
I want to see all the beautiful scenery the world has to offer with my own eyes.
I want to get away from the city, just so the city lights won't get in my way of viewing what's truly beautiful, hundreds of thousands of stars shimmering in the night sky.
I want to just lay down on a field of grass and feel thankful for being alive, just so I can take in the majesty of Mother Nature.
I want to get away from urbanisation and experience what it truly means to be free. Free from the chains of technology, free from pollution and free from the ugly side of people.
I want to lie down just so I can see the clouds float by, just to see how many shapes or animals I can identify.

There's more I can list but anyone else wants what I want in life?

no where, at all. 12:51 am

about the girl.

Wednesday, February 11, 2009

next best thing to kbox: cbox.

the past that haunts her.

thanks.