Friday, February 22, 2008

Are you afraid of the dark?

Most would immediately go "of course not!" at that question without a second thought. But is it really so?

By dark, I don't mean the lights out kind of dark alone. I mean, the darkness in everyone's hearts and the darkness in everyone's minds. I realised this when the lights were out and I lay there alone. I did not fear that a monster might suddenly reach out from under my bed and grab me. Nor did I fear that there would be ghosts. No. I noticed I feared about what I was thinking, the thoughts in my head, those were what scared me.

I also noticed that I only think about these stuff when it's pitch black and you can't see what's ahead of you. It's at times like this when the darkness in everyone's minds or hearts really materialise. You shut your eyes, thinking that might make it better, but instead, it worsens the situation. More vivid images of your greatest fears appear in front of you and can't make it stop.

There's just something about darkness. It attracts people to it and yet it deters people from it at the same time. Everyone has their own deep, dark secret that they want to keep. Why is everyone curious to find out about everyone else's deep dark secrets? That was what I meant by attract. It makes us curious, it makes us want to find out more and delve deeper. But as we go along, we feel fear building up inside of us. Fear of not knowing what's ahead, the fear of uncertainty.

People go through a lot of trouble to suppress the darkness within them, not wanting to let it come out. So let me ask again.

Are you afraid of the dark?

It's no wonder I stay up all night, no matter how much I love sleep. I guess I just hate the process of falling asleep and the darkness that comes with it.

I guess I'm not making much sense again, am I?

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Now playing: Evanescence - Lithium
via FoxyTunes

no where, at all. 9:11 pm

about the girl.

Friday, February 22, 2008

next best thing to kbox: cbox.

the past that haunts her.

thanks.