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kym.
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born 29th september 1989.
working.
living for the sake of it.
Monday, October 30, 2006
My wishes came true yet again, I believe in all these stuff even more so now. This time, you responded. You even came over to give me a hug and tell me that everything will be alright and that it will all work out fine in the end.
I certainly hope so.
And oh, Jo moo moo, I've been kinda feeling like you recently. Ya know, all those stuff in your last entry. Bleah, look me up soon yea?
Lamont, thanks for everything. =)
Toodles poodles
no where, at all.11:26 pm
Sunday, October 29, 2006
Well, I dunno. Stop asking me, really. I'll tell you when I feel I should.
Haven't been feeling exactly well lately, headaches are coming back. Damn.
I guess you musta sensed/saw that I'm missing you badly because I dreamed of you. =) I prefer to think that you 拖梦 to me. It may sound silly, but I actually believe in such stuff. Although in the dream there wasn't much talking, the atmosphere was peaceful and serene. You just stood there, smiling at me and looking pretty as always. I'd like to think that you are doing well up there, you will always live in our hearts.
But, that still doesn't change the fact that I wasn't there for you when you needed me. I wasn't there for you on your last journey, and I regret that immensely. I know its over and I can't do anything anymore, but I just can't help but feel this way. Please forgive me.
Will you please let me dream of you again? Talk to me!
Toodles poodlesno where, at all.9:08 pm
Friday, October 27, 2006
Received lotsa comments that I might have a hand in causing myopia/eye problems with my font colour/size. Therefore, gonna use black font from now on.
Hmm, I thought I'd keep it to myself and just act as if nothing happened. I thought, that is. But, it spilled out today anyways. Well, I guess it was only fair that I told her why I've been acting this way.
For my dearest friend.
I miss you a lot, I really do I regret not being there for you I wish to have you back with me I hope you hear my sorrowful plea
Rest in Peace, dear one. You will be missed dearly.
On a lighter note, am kinda glad things got sorted out. Well, somehow.
no where, at all.6:49 pm
Thursday, October 26, 2006
-Yawns-
Marketing is a pain, srsly.
Not to mention, we got pang seh'ed, wtf? I won't even bother mentioning it, I'm just pissed. NO SENSE OF RESPONSIBILITY -AT ALL-. Not even an sms, really. I mean, come on, common sense la okay, at least one sms la. That's like, what, 5 cents? Maybe line got dunno how many hundred free sms, even better, FREE LEH! (I'm like promoting for phone line can)
Done with that. Won't even bothering making it less obvious because its my blog and if I can't rant here, where will I rant or rather who can I rant to at this kinda weird timing?
Okay wait, I just ranted to biao jie on msn, haha. The irony of it all. I won't even bother pondering about all the irony that's present in this world.
To you: I'm quite sick and tired of your spoilt-brat antics la, srsly. I think someone else is sick of it too, and I believe that person has expressed it to you? Or maybe I'm wrong, I dunno. You act as if the world is against you, you act as if you're the MOST MOST MOST poor thing in the world, you act as if people won't ever understand you at all, the list just goes on la okay. But has it ever occured to you that there are actually other people out there that are suffering much much more? You have an abundance of clothes, food or whatever neccessities (shit I forgot how to spell) while other people are out there worrying about how to find their next meal.
Sometimes I don't think you have the right to say certain things that you do, sometimes I think you say the wrong things at the wrong time and at the wrong place AND you do not ever realise that you've said the wrong stuff. Insensitive, yes that's the word. I admit, I've been like that on many occasions too, but I realise it that I've said the wrong things. The problem with me is I don't think before I speak, I speak, I regret and I end up having to do the whole apology thingy. You are different. You don't think before you speak AND you don't think after you speak, therefore do not realise the wrong things you say and end up with people being pissed at you without you even knowing.
Okay la I'm worse than that, I'm just in denial (as usual). =x
Oh god, I can't believe I ranted so much about this. Seriously man, one big mistake just triggers off all the other stuff and I just had to let it all out.
And now that its all outta my system, I'm good to go. =D
Time for BED. -Glee-
Toodles poodlesno where, at all.12:07 am
Wednesday, October 25, 2006
Crowds gimme headaches.
I mean, public-holiday-vivo-city kinda crowd. Zzz =.-
Vivo city was quite a disappointment, really. Ugh. Wasted a nice public holiday of sleeeeep. Weeee sloth. -Glee-
Bleah, next public holiday won't be until Christmas. Too... darn... far... away... T_T
Blogging in school is a hassle so Imma keep it short.
Toodles poodles no where, at all.8:35 am
Saturday, October 21, 2006
I'm in the mood for love... ... ... songs =P
Yes, can't get enough of love songs lately. Who cares if they're sappy and all? I WUB THEM! MUAHAHAHAHA o.0
Okay, I'm mad, don't mind me.
Anyways, the name spoofing is getting outta hand recently. Nvm, once the clan is up, those not in it will be labelled as IMPOSTERS! Grr.
Okay, gotta go, sushi date.
Toodles poodlesno where, at all.2:37 pm
Thursday, October 19, 2006
Okay, so I recovered my songs and photos. I was happy, but not for long. =.-
I accidentally wiped out my laptop applications. THEREFORE, I HAVE TO REFORMAT IT... AGAIN! %**&^!#!^%$
Right, nvm, its simple, I can do it easily.
Yesterday I had no internet the whole day because of a very stupid reason. My cousin forgot to pay the internet bills and broadband got cut off. =D
Biao jie says she's hungry.
I don't know why, but she just told me to write it down in my blog as I sit here in tutorial blogging instead of taking down notes.
Anyways, I'm hungry too. Hur hur. =x
Not the mention, I feel cold too, even with a jacket on.
Got my finger cut by my notebook this morning, bled baaaaadly. 蝙蝠侠. Heh, inside joke. =x
Bleh, I got nothing much to blog about, just wanted to blog for the sake of blogging I guess. Right, so I'm gonna go, 20mins till lesson ends, I WANT MY LUNCH!!
Toodles poodles no where, at all.12:29 pm
Wednesday, October 18, 2006
Cool. Not only did my pictures get wiped out. My songs got wiped out too, yippee! -Insert string of curses at Steward, the computer guy-
Procrastination.
Its something really weird and ironic. You -know- its wrong and yet you just.. continue doing it. Biao jie's impulse buying today made me think of this.
She was looking at a $30 dollar leather belt from Esprit. She goes, "Okay, this is the type of belt I want, I've been looking for it for ages! Okay I'm gonna buy it. Yay, impulse buying!"
So I was like, "Wait, you actually -know- you're doing impulse buying.. and you're still gonna buy it?"
She just grinned and proceeded to pay for her 30 dollar Esprit leather belt.
See the similarity between this and procrastination? Yup, so these got me thinking about human nature. Are we really in control of our lives? Some might say everything boils down to discipline. But is it really?
Then I thought about what Jerome Lo said. "Go for the heart, not the head."
Oh how true this is, many times I find my head succumbing to the needs of my heart. Is that why people say there is no logic in love and that love is blind? Because in love, its all about the heart, not the head. Emotions, not logic.
I know I'm blabbering. Nvm.
Off to bed I go.
Toodles poodles
Note to self: As much as I'd like to give in and sms regularly with Boon, I can't, my bill will burst with all those internatonal sms'es. T_T Think for your wallet, Kym. THINK FOR YOUR POOR WALLET!no where, at all.1:25 am
Tuesday, October 17, 2006
Went to town after school today to accompany biao jie to buy her bf's birthday present. Its amazing how a few hours out in town can lead to the following.
My eyes and throat are dry and itchy. My skin is kinda reddish.
I hope the haze goes away really really soon. =(
I did something stupid today. I thought of him again, that's what. When I was about to have japanese food for lunch in Canteen 1 with Ame and Biao jie, I suddenly remembered how we used to enjoy going to eat japanese food together.
All those wonderful memories. I'm so sorry that things had to end on a bad note, I really am. But, that's too bad, we can't turn back time or undo anything that has already happened.
Steering away from that, christmas isn't very far away. What do you guys want for christmas? Tell me earlier so I have a rough gauge of how much to save up etc. -Impt- DON'T BE BLOODY BLOOD SUCKERS THOUGH. I won't entertain erm-esprit-levi's-topshop-plus-a-treat-at-some-fancy-restaurant kinda thoughts, tyvm. =D
LocVid wasn't as bad as I thought. Its actually kinda interesting, I like it. But, OMFG THH IS 36?! WTH?! -Ahem- *Breathes in* Right, where was I? Ah yes, LocVid was fun. Funny part was when Mon's ass got aired on screen, lawl.
That's about it. I think I need a nap now.
Toodles poodles
P.S.: Yellow croc's-wearing people must DIE!no where, at all.6:09 pm
Monday, October 16, 2006
Oh my frickin' god la. =.=
First day in school and I spent 13 hours in school already! I reached school at 7am and only left at around 8pm! Like.. W-T-H?!
Gawd, dead tired la.
But, on a lighter note, the day ended pretty well. =) Went for late dinner at KAP Mac's with Ame, WT, J, Daph and Gib. Terence went with us, but he left after a while. Strawberry milkshake like totally pwnz0rz. =x
Lol, highlight of the day was after dinner. Biao jie had this KRRAAAZZEEEE idea to buy cola and mentos and do the exploding experiment. Zzz. =.=
And oh, guess what? We actually agreed to do it. -Jaw drop- First 2 attempts, FAIL! Went to buy MORE cola and mentos and did a third attempt, which turned out quite well. =P By then, everyone was about ready to go home.
Friends make school so much easier to take in.
BUT STILL! I LEFT HOUSE AT 6.30AM AND REACHED HOME AT 10PM SIA!
Zzz, really dead tired. Settled stuffs for tomorrow's FRICKING 8AM tutorial already. Have... to... go... crash... .... .... .... T_T
Bleh, just found out the computer guy reformatted the comp without backing up my philippines photos and they got wiped out. =.= Shiat, gotta get them from someone else liao, kns. =.=
Toodles poodles
P.S.: I can't wait for coffee outing next tuesday with Jojo the cow monster and Eeeeeeeel! I saw Eel today in lecture but I still miss jojo and I wanna see her soon!no where, at all.11:44 pm
Sunday, October 15, 2006
Time is now 5am.
This is the last night that I can stay up till so late for now. School reopens tomorrow. T_T
Having mixed feelings about going back to school. I'm kinda happy that I can go back to school because to be honest, holidays get too boring sometimes.
However, I am kinda afraid at the same time. Afraid that I won't be able to cope with the workload, afraid that I won't meet the expectations set for me, afraid that I will fail.
Bleah. This mixed feeling sucks.
I still need to get my laptop fixed, plus the house comp has been sent for servicing. So, right now I can only mafan biao jie to help me print notes. T_T Thanks a lot, biao jie, treat you to drinks k. =D
This holiday has been really different from all the others. Can't explain why, it just feels.. different. Maybe its just me, I don't know.
Anyways, I promised myself that I would do my best this semester. Whatever it is, I must pull up my grades.
Going back to Singapore tomorrow, I hope the computer gets repaired soon. I need my internet and I need it to do work, seriously. T_T
I better go to bed now before the parents wake up.
Toodles poodlesno where, at all.5:00 am
Friday, October 13, 2006
Hmm, am kinda glad that FMSS meeting got postponed to monday at 6 but the thing is RESMET meeting is ALSO on monday at 6.
Sooooo gotta tell Azhar we can't go again, we skip don't know how many meetings already, hoho.
I finally know why I'm so into gaming already. Its because when I'm gaming, it takes up so much of my mind that I don't think about other stuff.
Well now, what can I say, he reads my blog, lol. Soooo...
Wil, you asked me why we couldn't just remain as we were before. So now I'm telling you that the moment you believed what she said about me, it was over, heh. Also, I can't stand the fact that I was the one that introduced the two of you to each other. I set this up myself, I have no one to blame, not blaming you or her. But all I want now is to be away from the two of you for now. Gimme a little time, I'll get over it sooner or later. Meanwhile, all the best to the two of you, I mean it. =)
Toodles poodlesno where, at all.4:03 pm
Wednesday, October 11, 2006
Okay, at first I thought it was only one person that mistook it (yes yu jing, that's you -.-) and I just heck care.
BUT, 3 people mistook my last entry as talking about them, lol. And the thing is, they're all females. I remember saying in my last entry that this person was taken away from me by another girl. -.= Soooo yeah, unless you three are lesbians, which I don't think so, its not possible that I'm talking about you. =P
Okay, partially my fault because I shoulda made it clearer who I was talking about la. But I'm not sure whether he actually reads my blog, that's the thing. -.- But from now on, I shall state clearly who I'm talking about in my entries, just to avoid misunderstandings and such. -Nods-
This is to Kit, Jacelyn and Yu Jing. For you three that thought I was talking about you, my apologies. Haha, sorry la, will state clearer if I happen to post anymore of these emo entries. Just for the record, Yu Jing scolded me like hell just for not stating it clearly can, that meanie. -.- Made me treat her to Coffee Bean for her loss. What loss, you ask? Xin ling chuang shang, or so she says. Zzz. Lost 6 bucks just like that. -.=
Anyways now you three know who I was talking about already, so pleeeeaaassee keep it to yourself, kam xia.
Anyways, its so laggy trying to blog in JB, it gets on my nerves. But I'm damn bored and this new MMORPG is starting to get me pek chek. But if you wanna try, go ahead, link is here. File isn't very big, only 363Mb, so yeah, just try it.
Warning though, it has hypnotic background music. xD
Anywho, I think I'm gonna go. Ahhh FMSS meeting tomorrow, gonna go down to Sg tonight I guess, bleah.
Take care.
Toodles poodles
P.S.: Eel and Jo, if you're reading this, sms me and tell me when we're supposed to go out for coffee! Omg, school is starting soon, make it quick! =Pno where, at all.3:23 am
Sunday, October 08, 2006
You used to love me, you used to hug me. But that wasn't the case, everything wasn't okay. I was left to cry there, waiting outside there. That's when I decided. Why should I care? You weren't there when I was scared, I was so alone. ------------------------------------------------------------
You used to call me just to talk about nonsensical stuff. You used to call me to vent your anger about anything. You used to message me just to chat about everything. You used to hug me when you were feeling low. You used to care about me. You used to love me.
Yes, -you used to-.
And I miss all that.
But, why should I care when you don't care?
How I wish I could say that everything changed when you met her and that she took you away from me by backstabbing me. But I know that I can't blame this on anyone but myself, I can't blame her, I can't blame you, only myself.
I opened up to you too soon and in the end, I got hurt. Its my own fault I got hurt, really.
Its okay, I'll be alright. I'm gonna be stronger. I won't let myself be affected by you because its my life, not yours. I will do what I think is right and what's right is to put all my focus on next sem, not you.
Toodles poodlesno where, at all.7:38 pm I actually wanted to blog yesterday, but was kinda preoccupied with many many many many (think you get the idea) stuff.
This entry is dedicated to Slim (his nickname).
Anyways, main point is, I talked to Shauny-ass yesterday night about some problems I've been facing. He's been through what I'm going through now and I'm really glad I have him because he's a really good friend. He's always there to listen to my problems, give me advise and cheer me up. Heh, so yeah, THANK YOU SLIM! ^_^
I have to go do something now. Damn, frickin' busy.
Toodles poodlesno where, at all.5:11 pm
Thursday, October 05, 2006
Well, my frickin' brother from different parents, i.e. Lamont Dev Manogaran Lee Le Wen, forced me to come blog. So yeah, here I am being forced to blog.
I really don't know what to blog about, except that I'm just quite confused as well. About many things, really. I don't want to state them, really would make it too obvious, but I guess only Lamont knows what I'm talking about.
To be honest, I'm a little bit stressed out at this point in time, too many things are happening at the same time and its a bit hard to take in all of this right now. Really starting to doubt my own abilities, I think I might just be that kinda person that gets lucky once in a while and the rest of the time, I get so convinced that I'm actually capable and in the end all comes to naught.
Okay I'm not making much sense. But nvm.
I think I've gotten weak, compared to last time. I think I've changed so much that I do not know who I really am anymore. Where is the real me? I've lost me, really. This is not me, I was never like that, its so obvious that I've changed. But yet, why do I not have the urge to find back the real me?
Bleh, nvm, I can't be bothered, I'm exhausted.
If I lay here, if I just lay here, would you lie with me and just forget the world? =/
Toodles poodlesno where, at all.9:55 pm
Wednesday, October 04, 2006
Ahhh~
Ice cold bird's nest is so orgasmic
I'm not kidding, its so frickin' orgasmic I just HAD to make this post
I went out for 12 whole hours today can! Met up with biao jie, dar and ah lian at Orchard.. Went to eat at then Marche, now Vil'age.. Seriously, Marche sounds nicer la can -.- Then sooooooooo frickin' full.. We went to simply walk around town until our tummy was ready to accept ice cream XD
Had gelare instead of B&J's.. Fine with me since waffles were at half price, heheeee.. Omg such a glutton today can.. After ice cream walk again then we split up.. I went to meet mel and Aaron (however you spell his name), mel's classmate.. We watched JOHN TUCKER MUST DIE! Mel says that John Tucker not shuai worrrr... But I think he's quite shuai leh, huifen also say he quite shuai.. Aiya her taste in guys WEIRD la XD
Anyways, went to Swenson's after movie.. I didn't eat okay! Only Aaron ate, I drank Iced Mocha XD So since it was still too early to meet that idiot Huifen, we went to play pool for an hour and I displayed my horrible pool skills =D
Met with Huifen after that and they dragged me to Holland V for dinner at Crystal Jade sia T_T -Money fly away- So anyways, we went to look for a bar to sit down, have a drink and just chill.. In the end, I was the only one that drank alcoholic drinks can -.-
Sian ah! Today spent so much money! I feel the pain when I look at my rather empty wallet.. Ugh T_T Lucky tomorrow's outing cancelled already..
Okay I need to go~
Toodles poodles
P.S.: Tonight got bird's nest to drink XD P.P.S: Thanks Joanna for that cute and sweet post! LOVES! ^_^no where, at all.10:34 pm
Monday, October 02, 2006
Haven't been able to blog the past few days..
Okay, I was lying. I'M LAZY! ._.
Anyways, the past few days was kinda sad. NOT ONLY DID OUR RADIO CAPSULE SCREW UP! (@!@$$^*&#%) My parents forgot about my birthday =(
This year's birthday was frickin' sad la.. I guess this is how it gets when you grow older.. Sigh, nvm, its time I outgrew all these stuff anyways, I'm older by yet another year already
I'd want to blog about the radio capsule, but ah, as I said, I'm lazy and when I blog about it, I get all agitated and stuff.. So yeah, think I'll just forget it~
I'm soooooooooooooo tired T_T Been going all around Singapore today and running lots of errands.. Not to mention, I didn't have enough sleep last night.. I finally went out with Huifen and Melz yesterday.. Baskit, tell me 1+ will reach, in the end almost 3 then reach! Lucky I didn't go early to wait for them, if not I die at City Square ah -.-
The girls bought me a necklace + a pair of earrings.. Love the present lots =) Dar bought me a super duper cute Chibi Totoro pouch with a dust bunneh by the side.. She claims it looks as gong as me, well, I shall take that as a compliment because gong = cute.. So, thanks a lot ya XD I'm kinda happy too, because those AbN admins gave me vop as birthday present, lols.. I think they were just feeling guilty that they forgot about it XD But anyways, thanks guys =)
Right, going out tomorrow with biao jie, dar and ah lian for lunch and B&J's! Tuesday is ice cream day! Buy 1 get 1 free! Wahahahaha XD
Okay, I'm getting too high, time to go off before I go crazy
