I realised I just posted an entry not long ago.. But this entry is dedicated to correcting something I felt I've done wrong? Or, whatever.. I dunno, its late and my brain pretty much isn't working..
I made this post titled "I want to hide in my shell" sometime ago.. Dunno when la, don't ask me.. And I'm lazy to go link it for you, so go look for it yourself or something..
Anyways, to correct that post.. I think that post was too extreme.. I mean, if I was someone reserved and introverted, I wouldn't be typing this now.. But I'm actually someone that can't stand not having friends, can't stand being lonely and can't stand not sharing things sometimes..
Well, the last point, might not always be applicable, because I have lotsa people telling me I tend to keep things to myself too much =/ Meh, I dunno.. But I'm gonna try to change that soon
As the title says, I find that I've been thinking too far.. Why think so far ahead? Why be afraid to open up because you think it will end sooner or later? Why not cherish who/what you have now and live life to the fullest? What if one day you suddenly died, and you died with regrets, having no one that is close to you?
I've realised my mistake, I realised recently that close friends are hard to come by.. But, if we don't open up, they will NEVER come by.. So I've decided to give it a shot.. I want to be close to the friends I have now.. I want them to be a big part of my life.. And if it dies out sooner or later, we'll wait till then to decide how to deal with it, I just hope it wouldn't have to happen =)
If it does, too bad, I'll just have to learn to cope with it and learn how to be stronger
I can't afford to always hide in my shell
And in case you guys wonder what suddenly changed my perspective on friends? Ans: I realised I have great people around me now, and I don't wanna be a dumbo and let them pass, only to regret in the end
Now its really time for bed
Toodles poodles
P.S.: The great people around me.. If you dunno who you are, you ought to be shot, or hanged, or something =P Because, for me to think you're great, you really are =) And if you do not realise it, you need to start to realise how great you really are and how important you are to me as a friend.. And although you guys might be spastic, its still wonderful having you guys around =) I love the world so much more now that I've cleared out my thoughts and feelings =D
