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Thursday, August 31, 2006
I'm thinking of you, 我有你真好
And that is a random part of the song I'm listening to.. Wonder when I can tell a certain someone that.. Meh -shrugs-
Right, today wasn't bad at all! Although I was stuck in a traffic jam the whole morning, I had a pleasant surprise in the morning! =D
What surprise, you ask? Hehe.. We finally collected back our info essays and proposals.. I did better than I expected for both! =D I was expecting myself to fail the info essay, but I didn't, and I got a C.. Xie tian xie di, hehe =) Proposal...... MUAHAHAHA =X The Lee group gets an A+!!! I was like, "Woah! Wtf?! YAY!"
Then we were like, "When the Lee's unite, good things happen".. LOL, bullcrapness =X In case some people don't know what the @#*$) I'm talking about.. There are 3 people including me in the class that has the surname "Lee".. And just so happens we got grouped together, or maybe Mr Sharpe just thought it'd be fun to group us together, lol.. ANYWHO! I had lots of fun in this group, we work together alright, and the grades we got weren't bad at all! I'm happy! =D
Heather was saying when Lee's unite, rainbows will appear, the blind can see, whatever else shit she came up with la.. Dar merely said that there'll be WORLD PEACE! -.- Like, w/e =X
We had some briefing today for the Philippines trip.. What the module is all about, what we should or should not do.. Some, to put it nicely, IDIOTS were giggling A LOT, and I mean, A LOT during the lecture.. I mean, what the teacher was saying was NOT funny at all, seriously do not know WTH was so funny that they had to giggle so much.. A few of us were pretty annoyed with them.. No basic courtesy ok? Shawna/Chin Liang was giving a talk and there you are laughing your ass off, least you could do is to pay attention and show a little respect, ok?
Ok, done bitching
I missed meeting rox, yanni and huifen and watching a movie by a little while, all because I waited so long for 961, damn =( Ah well, I just went to settle some stuff and went home..
Now currently nua'ing in front of the comp, gonna watch Goong again soon.. I'm so addicted can
Toodles poodles
no where, at all. 4:24 pm
Here I am blogging in the wee hours again when I should be sleeping because I have to go to school tomorrow morning for a meeting about the Philippines trip
Well......... Screw it, I can't get to sleep
Its 31st Aug, my mom's birthday and yet I can't go back to celebrate it with her =/ And oh, merdeka! Wee! -.- That means independance day, I think.. Malaysia's national day la, for those slower ones =X
Realising that we're not having holidays, which equals to no work to do, I can't do what I said I was gonna do in the last post.. Therefore, I have been stuffing myself silly with korean dramas to occupy my time and my mind too, I guess.. Been watching Goong for many hours today and I guess it served the purpose of getting my mind off of silly stuff
Its 1am now
I gotta wake up at 7am
I'm gonna go lie down and will myself to sleep
Go to sleep, dammit! -Smacks self-
Toodles poodles
no where, at all. 1:00 am
Wednesday, August 30, 2006
最近心情一直都不好, 心事重重又没有可以诉苦的对象, 憋得我快要烦死了.
爸妈的情况不知道现在怎么了..... 都不知道要如何开口向他们说出国的费用又要调高了.
最近对很多事都觉得很反感, 做起事来一点耐心也没有. 更糟的是我好像越来越敏感了. 不知道是我多心, 还是我的想法是正确的, 只知道因为这样, 我心里时时刻刻都很难受.
昨天我还在烦恼该怎么办, 但我始终什么都没做, 什么都没说. 只发了一个很简单的简讯, 预祝他"生日快乐". 他也只简单的回了一句"谢谢", 之后我们什么也没说了.
有好多话想跟他说, 但不知道如何开口才不会伤害我们之间美好的友情. 但我知道, 我的心已经默默地渐渐死了. 我再也没有什么期望, 再也没有什么要求, 只想把所有的精力放在学业上. 也许这样, 我可以用功课麻醉自己, 好让我自己没时间去想其他的事, 也没时间感到伤心.
好吧! 就这么决定吧, 让时间慢慢地帮我疗伤, 我就不信我不会回到从前开朗的我.
李仪云, 振作一点! 生命短暂, 不要想这么多, 要活出色彩!
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For all my non-chinese or chinese but banana friends, I'm sorry but sometimes I feel that I'm able to express myself better in mandarin.. But, I assure you, if I write in mandarin, its usually depressing, so its nothing much that's worth reading, heh..
That said, my laptop servicing trip is cancelled because Shelia couldn't make it.. But, no biggie, I don't really need my laptop at the moment.. Not planning to bring it to the Philippines anymore..
Right, I took quite long to blog today, I wanna go watch Goong now
Toodles poodles
P.S.: Shit, I'm broke as hell ='(
no where, at all. 3:42 pm
Tuesday, August 29, 2006
Sooooo frickin' tired
Finally went out with Huifen, Yanni and Rox today.. Too bad Melz couldn't make it because its her mom's birthday =/
Met up for lunch, brought SUA KU Yanni to the new Banquet at CWP.. Ironic that she lives in Woodlands area and doesn't know that CWP has a new food court, lol
All of them ate chicken rice, and being the unique one and I am (=X), I ate mee goreng, lol.. In the end they regretted buying chicken rice and liked my mee goreng better, hoho =X
Decided to go to Bugis after lunch, MRT ride was fun, heh.. They're still as crappy as EVER, but I still love 'em =D
Shopped and shopped at bugis then took a bus to Orchard for even more shopping! But after this whole day of shopping, all I bought was a pair of earrings.. -.- Hey, I'm kinda broke now ok.. I'm controlling my spending!
I made a lame joke about green man when we were crossing the road.. The red man was up, but the cars were not moving too, by right we should've been able to cross the road.. Then we were contemplating whether to cross or not, and this guy in green walks to our side and was waiting for the light too.. I was like, "But the green man isn't moving!".. Yanni was the first to get it and she burst out laughing, followed by the other two slowers ones =X Lame jokes galore today, I so totally :heart:
We went to a shop selling some nice shirts, but the shopkeeper a.k.a. super chatty chee ko pek uncle made us want to punch him.. Why, you ask? Because he was talking too much, and he was talking nonsense.. He said to Rox, "I like you, you have a very exotic look" (Super chatty chee ko pek uncle, 2006)
It was ironic too, that we were sitting outside print club.. But instead of taking neoprints, we cam whored with Yanni's digicam.. The shop assistants were looking at us with weird faces that seemed to be asking "why sit outside print club take own pics?!", lol
My answer, "Because we can afford digicams! Hmph!" =X
Just kidding, I may be GL, but I'm not -that- GL..
Rox went to work after that, three of us decided to head back to our beloved nothern part of Sg because we're lousy and we lack the stamina to shop for long hours =X
Yanni got off at Admiralty, hmph.. Huifen and me alighted at Woodlands, went to buy her doughnut and walked around Pasar Malam for a while then headed home..
I'm dead tired, and tomorrow I'm going out with Shelia to get my frickin' laptop fixed.. I really hope it gets fixed asap, I wanna use it to get my songs -.-
I'll upload some pics that we took today if Yanni sends them to me tonight, if I'm not too lazy and if blogger allows me to
Shiat, his birthday arrrives in about 5 hours T_T
HOOOWWWW?! T_T
Toodles poodles
no where, at all. 6:57 pm
Things I got from today's shopping... 1 3/4 pants, 1 long pants and 1 jacket.. I guess you could say it was a fruitful trip.. Only thing, the jacket, I liked the pink/black one better, but there wasn't my size =( So in the end I got the purple one, which was nice as well..
I need to buy tops, really
Also, cousin bought me silicone iPod casing as early b'day gift coz I wanna get it before I go to the Philippines, yayness
I'm rather sad, since my laptop got f'ed up, my thumbdrive got f'ed up and everything is just so f'ed up.. -Sigh-
How irresponsible can some people get? I lend them my thumbdrive, never return.. That one I'm not blaming, because I'm partly to blame for being so kan jiong and running off.. But, when I got back the thumbdrive, I virus scanned it, almost ALL the files were corrupted! WTF?!
Well, anyways, I didn't need the files anymore since the semester is over, so I wasn't as worked up as I would be if the files were important.. Lucky for them, if not I'd really call them up and scold people, maybe demand that they for a new thumbdrive, too
My laptop, I shall not elaborate.. Thank Shelia that's gonna accompany me to AMK apple service centre to get it fixed, THANK YOU LOTS!
I've started watching Goong (where else but on youtube?).. Must say I'm enjoying it up to now.. Yul is sooooo much hotter than Shin caaaannnn?! And oh, the royal family's surname? LEE! Muahaha =X Lee's ftw =X
His birthday tomorrow.. What should I do? =(
今天, 我发现了一件事, 那就是原来我的心还蛮脆弱的
我讨厌我这脆弱的心
你饶了我吧, 我在也承受不了这种伤害了
Toodles poodles
P.S.: I heard this from yx, so blame him
"I'll say, mee siam mai hum! Mai hum mai hum mai hum!"
Anyone get the pun? :o
no where, at all. 12:08 am
Monday, August 28, 2006
Nobody's Home ~ Avril Lavigne
I couldn't tell you why she felt that way,She felt it everyday.
And I couldn't help her, I just watched her make the same mistakes again.
What's wrong, what's wrong now?
Too many, too many problems.
Don't know where she belongs, where she belongs.
She wants to go home, but nobody's home.
It's where she lies, broken inside.
With no place to go, no place to go to dry her eyes.
Broken inside.
Open your eyes and look outside, find the reasons why.
You've been rejected, and now you can't find what you left behind.
Be strong, be strong now.
Too many, too many problems.
Don't know where she belongs, where she belongs.
She wants to go home, but nobody's home.
It's where she lies, broken inside.
With no place to go, no place to go to dry her eyes.
Broken inside.
Her feelings she hides.
Her dreams she can't find.
She's losing her mind.
She's fallen behind.
She can't find her place.
She's losing her faith.
She's fallen from grace.
She's all over the place.
Yeah,She wants to go home, but nobody's home.
It's where she lies, broken inside.
With no place to go, no place to go to dry her eyes.
Broken inside.
She's lost inside, lost inside...oh oh yeah
She's lost inside, lost inside...oh oh yeah
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Italicised some rather "familiar" parts.. I guess there's a reason why these songs are even written in the first place.. Maybe she's facing the same problems? Heh..
Apparently I'm being emo again o.0
Toodles poodles
P.S.: I know some people don't like Avril, but its my blog, so live with it =P
Plus, its the lyrics that appeal to me, not exactly her -Nods-
no where, at all. 3:55 pm
Shiat -.-
I fell asleep on the floor at around 11.. I woke up, brushed my teeth and everything and moved to sleep on the bed.. I already had a feeling I wouldn't be able to sleep, and apparently my feelings are so accurate -.-
So, I tossed and turned and tossed and turned and tossed and turned (you get the idea).. I started to think about stuff again.. Dunno why the hell, but hey, sometimes you just can't stop your mind from wandering..
Suddenly I thought of what happened with the dog yesterday near Chin Liang's place, and I was laughing to myself, heh.. I'm so spastic.. BAD DOG, BAD!
Then I thought about how I've been "electrocuting" people.. Ya know, when you walk past a person and the arms accidentally rub against one another, you get the feeling of being SHOCKED.. Yea, poor dar was victimised several times, along with a random auntie I was walking past.. AND my cousin when I came back -.-
Shiat, I'm seriously 放电'ing to the wrong people!
I am little miss 发电场, hohoho =X
Right, so I finally fell asleep at god knows what time.. Then to find myself waking up for no apparent reason at 3.30am -.- WTH is wrong with me? -.-
So again, I tossed and turned and tossed and turned and tossed and turned (you get the idea again).. I finally gave up at 3.50am when I realised it was useless, which explains why I'm blogging at such a weird time
Don't think I'm going back to bed anytime soon, thank god for AbN friends that like to online at such times
Toodles poodles
P.S.: I detest insomiacs!!
Shiat, that's me T_T
no where, at all. 4:20 am
Sunday, August 27, 2006
Let's try to make this short, because I'm dead tired.. And I blame it on dar, err, I mean.. I had fun! Yay! =X
Sooo, Dar and me met at JP today to do some shopping and finally satisfy her craving for cake and my craving for COFFEE! -Drools- =D........ Everytime I think of coffee, that happens, so yeah, live with it
White chocolate dream was yummeh! ^_^
Cheesecake was, well, filling.. Couldn't finish it, had to make dar help me eat and STILL didn't finish it..
I tell you, that woman had an amazing appetite today -.- Ate at home, ate her tiramisu, ate some of my cheesecake and was still so hungry when she went to Chin Liang's place -.- Wth.. After Chin Liang's place.. She says she wants to buy chicken home to eat! WTH?! Zomg she's a bottomless pit =X
We saw Abigail Chay at JP today hosting some event and I was telling dar I wanted to go up to her and ask for signature, pretending to be her number 1 fan, wahahahahahaha!! =X
Anyways, JP outing was fun, filled with lots of lame stuff -Whistles innocently and looks around- I'm innocent, really! Honest! Ok, maybe not VERY honest, but hey, it takes two hands to clap =X
Met up with the rest and as usual, some were late =X We cabbed over because the place seemed quite far.. We managed to reach just on time.. Chin Liang/his wife are great cooks! Although, I didn't eat much.. And the thing I enjoyed most was the Ikea meatballs which they bought, lol
Ironic how we were gonna watch "The Maid" when we were supposed to be doing interviews with foreign domestic workers, i.e. philippino maids.. We were supposed to watch while waiting for Brema, but she arrived just when the movie was about to start, so we stopped watching and she talked to us about the module etc
Ya know what? I ended up staring at the TV screen which had the movie on hold and the "DVD" logo bouncing across the screen endlessly.. I was looking at it bounce and change colours.. I thought everyone else was listening, and I was feeling guilty for not listening, I tried to listen but in the end, I succumbed to the wonders of the colour-changing-bouncing-logo
Soooo, when we were about to leave, when we were in the lift.. Lamont said, "Wah she say so much I also didn't listen, I was looking at the DVD logo bouncing".. Then suddenly everyone was like, "ME TOO! LOL".. Amazing how everyone is actually doing the same thing without each other realising, heh
Right, that pretty much sums up the day, I need to go shopping for clothes tomorrow! SnK had better have pants/skirts on sale
This entry isn't exactly short, is it? -Shrugs- I said I'd try
Toodles poodles
P.S.: I want to buy a puppy! =(
no where, at all. 9:23 pm
Saturday, August 26, 2006
Right, here I am blogging again..
You know why?
You might've guessed it, its because I'm back in Singapore and I can't play games!
Total yayness -.-
Some rather unhappy things happened during this time that I was back in JB.. But I don't think I'll post it here.. A bit personal, no offence =/
Head has been throbbing, and I mean REALLY throbbing.. It feels as if its about to explode! Imagine all the brain juice splattered all over when it really does explode =X Right, aaaannnnyyyways.. Yeah, headaches are bad, but maybe its all that overnight gaming thats causing it, so I can't blame anyone for it, damn =X
New dota map is out.. New heroes are so imbalanced o.0 I so totally owned with the new alchemist.. Won't be surprised if they decide to weaken it in the next map =/
Right, anywho, tomorrow's the meeting for the Philippines thingy at Chin Liang's place.. Yawwwnnnss T_T I'm tired, gotta wake up earlier tomorrow, I've been living like an owl for the past week
Toodles poodles
P.S.: Omg, both JB and Singapore comps are lagging badly T_T
Shiat -Cries-
no where, at all. 11:37 pm
Wednesday, August 23, 2006
Ahhhh! I am finally back T_T Sorry for not updating for sooooo long.. =/
JB.. Argh.. Came back only to receive news that the computer kena virus, sent for repairs.. NO GAMES evem afer 3 weeks -Sniffles- I was suffering from game withdrawal symptoms.. Then my cousin, which was my computer technician, keep on draaaaaaaaaagging the thing.. I was seriously bored at home.. Then when the comp came back, CANNOT CONNECT TO INTERNET, what the heeeelllll?!
Ok, so now my comp is back and my internet connection is back.. About time too -.- But apparently its friggin' slow, I don't know why.. Maybe its the frickin' ram, too little.. And recently the ram kena shed -Cries-
So anyways, even after the comp and internet is back, I gotta download everything again because of the reformat =( Also, seeing as to how slow the connection is, might pose a problem to gaming too =/
Ah well, shit happens -Shrugs-
I gotta go download everything back..
Toodles poodles
no where, at all. 3:00 pm
Friday, August 18, 2006
I'm your royal HIGH-ness!!! You'll understand why after you read this post
I'm frickin' HIIIIIGGGGGHHHHH!!! And I don't know WHHHHYYYY!!!
That rhymed o.0
I'm currently freaking out two people on msn.. One is Kelly and one is Sammie, like WEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!
Everything I'm saying now.. Is just rhyming.. For no rhyme or reason.. Get the pun? WAHAHAHAHA! Like, omg, I need to stop this HIGH feeling!
I told Kelly and Sammie that I'm not drunk nor am I high on drugs, I just forgot to take my medication =D
OMFG I'M MAKING LAME RHYMES EVERY MINUTE AND THE WORST THING IS... I LOVE IT!
And now, I think I've influenced them with my HIGHness.. They've started getting HIGGGHHHHH too! HOO!~ Omg, too and hoo rhymes -.-
Sammie's new nick.. CAMMY! Yes, the hawt army girl that works for M. Bison in Street Fighter, HAHAHAHA! All because of Kelly's typo.. She called her cam instead of sam.. I was like, "webcam? digicam?" =X
Kelly goes by the nick "Shoo Flee".. And when she wanted to go to bed.. She said "Shoo flee has to flee".. When she left.. I said "She fleeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee"... then followed by.. "market"
WAHAHAHAHA Flea market XD Omg shit, HIGH HIGH INTO THE SKKKKYYYYY!
Note to self: I can get very high even without drugs or alcohol -Runs around in circles-
Toodles poodles
P.S.: Kelly and Sammie learnt a valuable lesson.. And it is.. "It is unwise to talk to Kymmie online in the middle of the night, she freaks people out"
no where, at all. 2:49 am
Thursday, August 17, 2006
Right, the same thing happened again this morning.. Ok, 3.30am to be more exact.. I watched TV till 3+, heh..
Anyways, this is getting bad, I'm losing sleep over things that I shouldn't lose sleep over, if that even makes sense.. I lay on the bed and listened to music, all the while thinking about lotsa stuff again.. Gawd, I seriously think too much.. Being sensitive isn't that good either huh? I guess insensitive people have it going good, at least they feel happy because they're like, oblivious to what's happening around them and they don't give a damn to how others feel
I spent more than an hour just laying on the bed and thinking.. I tried to stop myself from worrying about unduly stuff and just sleep, but it just didn't work, thoughts just kept rushing into my head..
Its weird, how affected I am by this.. I find myself sub-conciously smiling at some thoughts.. And at others, tears well up in my eyes..
Is this what people call reflection on life? I don't know, really.. There are just some things I'll never understand, I guess.. Like what's on your mind, I'm clueless, simply clueless.. I feel so helpless and alone sometimes..
Then again, have no one to blame but myself.. Everything that's happening to me, is caused by me.. My own fault for not telling others how I feel about certain things, about what's bothering me and about..... my life.....
As depressing as this post might be, something good actually comes out of it, weeee.. o.0
Believe it or not, I have actually changed a bit.. This might sound unbelievable, but really, I was worse than this in the past.. At least now, I'm telling things to a few selected people.. I used to keep everything in me, absolutely everything.. Even if my closer friends probed me to tell, I wouldn't say anything, I would just keep mum and eventually, I guess they gave up on probing me to tell, heh
I'd take in all they had to say, anytime anyone needed a listening ear, I was glad to just listen to their sorrows.. I kept my own sorrows in me, I kept their sorrows in me, and in the end what happens? I feel miserable and frustrated.. Kinda reminds me of the movie I watched in the library with dar.. I really shouldn't keep everything in me, I don't wanna end up like her..
Everyone has secrets, so do I.. I've had bad times that I do not wanna tell people about, I agreed to change and open up, but bad times are bad times, I don't wanna be reminded of them =/
This is such a long and depressing post.. But its full of what I think, is this considered opening up a lil' more? -Shrugs- I tried
Toodles poodles
P.S.: To clear things up a little.. Dar, even though you're CRUEL, you're not as cruel as the person I mentioned in my last post, so yeah, that ain't you =P 喂不要烦啦, 你在烦什么? 有什么事尽管告诉我好吗? =)
P.P.S: Dar, I had to purposely bold, italicise and capitalise the word cruel for you.. See, the lengths I go to make people understand your cruelty -Grins- =D
no where, at all. 1:22 pm
Wednesday, August 16, 2006
Been lazing at home the whole day.. And what can I say?
I simply love it =D
Computer, TV, anything except work, w00t, life's good for now =D
Had a good sleep last night, been long since I had such a loooonnnggg sleep, I feel happy, hyper and high! Woooo!
Everyone seems to be enjoying their holidays, in my opinion.. Its like a caged bird finally being set free.. FREEDOM! And my parents, aunt and cousins are starting to really give me more freedom.. Usually they'd nag if I came back home late a little.. But now I guess they realised I have grown up and its time to trust me to know my limits.. I won't break that trust, I won't risk this hard-earned freedom being taken away
Yesterday night, or more like, this morning since it was 1am+.. I lay on my bed listening to music.. I tried to sleep but lots of thoughts suddenly just rushed into my head.. I thought about everything, simply EVERYTHING.. Happy things, sad things.. Family, friends, school.. Things that have been happening around me and things that happened in the past.. Tried to figure out how people think and what some people around me are thinking..
I seriously hate hot and cold treatments.. One moment, this person is treating me so warmly.. I felt the love and I wanted to give it back.. When I was about ready to give back, this person treats me so coldly and I am forced to retreat again.. I don't understand.. Is this a game we're playing? If so, I wanna say, this game isn't fun and I don't wanna continue with it.. Seriously, I'm sick of this kinda treatment.. If you're in a bad mood, tell me, share with me.. Don't simply cast me aside and act like I don't exist.. Because as much as you might hate it, I -do- exist, tyvm.. Meh -Shrugs-
Sometimes it would be so much easier if we could read minds.. Or it would be easier if people were more straighforward.. If you don't want me around, just two words "piss off" would do it, really.. Don't give me the cold shoulder, its friggin cruel..
Ok, now that that's outta my system, I'm back to being happy, hyper and high! =D
Its warm and I'm a lil sleepy, I wanna go take another shower and maybe wake myself up a lil
Toodles poodles
no where, at all. 7:38 pm
Tuesday, August 15, 2006
I realised today that I'm quite easily contented... Or rather, we are quite easily contented =X
It can be fun even if you're just hanging out doing nothing much.. Its the company that matters =)
If I told you what we, as in Sammie, Heather, Lamont and me, did today.. You'd probably say we were quite retarded.. Because that's probably what we were, retarded, heh.. Sam and Lamont were supposed to meet me at JE mrt at 1, and yes, they were late, weee =X From JE, we went to Payar Lebar, wow.. For those bad at Singapore geography, Jurong East is at the west end while Payar Lebar at the east.. And oh, we saw Wen Tong there, although I think she didn't see us, she was just at JE to change train, heh.. Wanted to say hi but we lazy la =X
What did we do at Payar Lebar? We went to Heather's house.. (Hard time finding it but I won't elaborate) What did we do there? We played with her father's pet parrot, major -.-''''''''' and then we played monopoly, even more major -.-'''''''.. Btw, her house is like, bird haven caaaannn? SO MANY NIAO NIAO'S AROUND!
But as I said, it was still fun! =D Dilip was there, and he was baking cookies.. So while we played Monopoly (which I realised Heather and Sam sucks at), we ate the cookies Dilip baked, they were yummy (they tasted like coco crunch, weird) =D
We had a bitching session after that.. Then I thought it'd be fun to bitch about Heather in her presence, so I told the rest and they were like "OKAY!".. Then we started bitching about Heather in front of her, lol! Damn fun caaaannn? She was so damn fed up with us, heh =P We were like, "Heather that fucking bitch ahh... I tell you ahh... She's a damn bitch siaaa" =X
Then ah, we left her house around... 5.30? Lamont didn't wanna see Heather's dad because he was wearing a Man Utd jersey and Heather's dad is a Liverpool fan cum Man Utd hater, lol.. Where did we go? Jurong Point -.- Which is like.. At Boon Lay which is even further west than Jurong East.. We seriously had too much time on our hands
Lamont FINALLY bought his cap.. Plus Christina Aguilera's new album.. Then we went to have dinner at some pizza/pasta place.. It wasn't very good, but I guess it was ooookkkkaaayyy?~
Went home after that, amazing I ain't very tired.. I had fun today guys, we should just hang out more often, hehe =P And next time, darling's gonna be there, right dar? =D
快点好起来哦! We waiting for you to go out with us, heh =P
Posting in chinese damn fun WOR.. I like to say "wor" WOR.. Parrot also like to say "wor" WOR.. DAMN COCK WOR! =X
Toodles poodles
P.S.: "Heather's room smells like Ikea" (Lee, 2006).. Too much writcomm has its side effects =D
no where, at all. 10:38 pm
Monday, August 14, 2006
Its amazing how my mood can swing, ya know..
Firstly, before I post anything else.. I wanna apologise to Darling, Heather and Mon mon.. Sorry for being such a bitch this morning at the radio DAWs.. I was having cramps, stressed out with work and some idiot was pestering me.. Thanks for tolerating with me and not falling out with me guys =)
Ok, back to today.. TODAY! Special day. Why? Because it marks the end of semester 1.2 =D Although it was quite a stressful day, everything ended at 5pm.. Yes, 5pm was the deadline for our assignments.. We were rushing like mad, okay.. Really MAD beyond words.. Finalising everything, finding printers that actually WORK to use.. Print, bind, put in envelope then hand in -.-
I finalised stuff, Mon mon and me went to print at the FRICKIN crowded printing shop and then he went to hand in the thing while I went to look for darling to see how she's doing.. She was frickin stressed out caaaaannnn? Woah lao, I see also scared.. Plus, she's ill and the bug is being mean, hmph T_T
When they finally got everything done, she finally let it goooooooo and all was well =) Darling, take care and get well soon, we're all waiting for you to go out and have some FUUUUUUNNNNN! Mushroom are fun guys =X
You seriously can see the obvious change in mood in me due to the arrival of this long overdue holiday =D I LOVE HOLIDAYS! HOO!
I need to go out, a lot.. I want to go out, a lot.. Its been a while since I've gone out and totally enjoyed myself because we've always been so busy with work.. NOW WE CAN RELAX!
But soon, we'll have to get ready for Philippines, weeee =D Go out and buy stuff together, ok guys? =D
I had dinner at yishun with my aunt and cousins earlier.. On our way back near the staircases.. I went ahead and hid in the corner.. They slowly walked... I timed myself.. They reached.. and BOOOO!
Instantly, two people went "AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!"
Weeee =X I laughed so hard I couldn't walk =X I feel so damn high now caaaaannn? =P
DOTA! HERE I COME! I MISS YOU! -MUACKS!- =X
Toodles poodles
P.S.: Its tiring to get around Ngee Ann Poly with all the staircases, slopes and other bitchy tiring thingys T_T
no where, at all. 9:27 pm
Sunday, August 13, 2006
Its a weird feeling.. I'm confused.. Is it the irony? Or is it the betrayal? Which one is hurting more? I dunno, really =/
Tried to sort out my feelings but to no avail, I'm still lost.. Very lost in fact.. Will someone be kind enough to guide me?
I was so tempted to delete that post saying that I wanted to start opening up to people.. All that irony, why is it all so coincidental?
Someone said, "You could keep it there to remind you of the irony"
I replied, "The irony is what hurts"
Then she says, "What, you're not sure what hurts more? The irony or the slap in the face?"
I was stumped.. I realised that I really didn't know =/ But, I guess I felt that the irony hurt because just when I wanted to open up.. Something makes me clamp my shell tight again.. Makes me think that I really shouldn't open up, I really can't trust anyone and that I should just be alone.. I guess that is what hurts me, the thought that no one out there is worth being close to and giving my trust to..
I might not always be the best friend out there, but I try my best to listen to my friends, cheer them up when needed, be there for them when they need me, give them a hug if they need it and lend a shoulder for them to cry on.. But, what do I get in return? I'm not directing this to all my friends.. Just.. some of them that I felt I've given a lot to them but it seems as though they never reciprocated..
Although, I have to say, I feel rather blessed to have met such great friends in poly.. You 3 know who you are.. Thanks for tolerating with me and listening to my rants and raves, guys.. But, I'm sorry, I'm still insecure at this moment in time.. Sometimes I wonder whether it'll be foolish to try once again.. To try to have trust in you guys.. To try to have confidence in friendships again.. -Shrugs- Someone gimme a sign? =/
Noticed all 4 of us seem to be having rather bad moods recently.. Cheer up guys, one sad person in the group is enough.. Let that person be me
Random stuff: I wonder why Avril Lavigne's songs has lyrics that I am always able to relate to.. Gawd, no, I'm emo T_T
Toodles poodles
P.S.: Mon mon, if you're reading this, don't brood over what happened yesterday night ok? And cry if you need to.. I need to, but can't, fo some unknown reason =/
no where, at all. 10:51 am
Saturday, August 12, 2006
I hid in a corner and tried to cry,
But nothing came out I wonder why
I was there when you needed me,
But where were you when I needed you?
I share with you my thoughts and feelings,
And yet you take them ever so lightly
I'm convinced that it is over,
And a part of me has certainly died
I need a hug, Imma go get tortor, at least she wouldn't betray me or deny me a hug
Toodles poodles
no where, at all. 7:01 pm
ARGH! FUCK THIS LIFE! WHY DID I EVEN BOTHER?! I HATE THIS WORLD!!!
Its been kinda long since I blogged using the word fuck, I don't want to use it, doesn't look nice, I know, but I can't help it, so sue me, whatever, I don't care anymore
Its weird, just yesterday night, I was feeling great and all, and today, my mood is shittier than EVER! Fucking shitty people can't let me have good moods for more than a while, they just HAVE to ruin my mood EVERY SINGLE FUCKING TIME!
And get this right, you might think I'm just having some emo outburst or SOMETHING, I dunno.. But I'm telling you, I'm not.. If you were in my situation, you'd be kinda sick of life too.. And yes, that's what I am now, sick of life and all the crap in it.. Some might say, "there's always some good in life" or "look on the bright side".. But you know what?! THAT'S ALL BULLCRAP AND IT ISN'T GONNA GO IN MY HEAD ANY MOMENT SOON! So yeah, I know you people mean well and I appreciate it, but don't bother wasting your time with me, ain't gonna work
I seriously hope this is just PMS and that I'm thinking too much.. But I've never ever felt so alone and betrayed before.. Just when I was beginning to think I should start trusting more people, this comes along and smacks me hard in the face! How can I ever trust people then?! HOW?! TELL ME!
Somehow, when I'm stressed, angry and in a bad mood, two things can happen, either I do not eat at all for very long or I feel like binging on stuff.. LOTS of stuff.. Both just happened recently, actually.. With my kind of dieting habit, I know I'll develop some sort of eating disorder soon, but I don't friggin care because I can't help it, and I seriously do not value this life that much anymore..
And oh, let's see how I'll die, shall we?
Confirmed that I'll lead a sad life and die in a sad manner.. Missed by the Muppets, how nice of them to even bother with meNow I can go be emo and slit my wrist or somethingToodles poodlesP.S.: You're still fucking oblivous about what you've done eh? Get outta my sight, bitch
no where, at all. 3:30 pm
I realised I just posted an entry not long ago.. But this entry is dedicated to correcting something I felt I've done wrong? Or, whatever.. I dunno, its late and my brain pretty much isn't working..
I made this post titled "I want to hide in my shell" sometime ago.. Dunno when la, don't ask me.. And I'm lazy to go link it for you, so go look for it yourself or something..
Anyways, to correct that post.. I think that post was too extreme.. I mean, if I was someone reserved and introverted, I wouldn't be typing this now.. But I'm actually someone that can't stand not having friends, can't stand being lonely and can't stand not sharing things sometimes..
Well, the last point, might not always be applicable, because I have lotsa people telling me I tend to keep things to myself too much =/ Meh, I dunno.. But I'm gonna try to change that soon
As the title says, I find that I've been thinking too far.. Why think so far ahead? Why be afraid to open up because you think it will end sooner or later? Why not cherish who/what you have now and live life to the fullest? What if one day you suddenly died, and you died with regrets, having no one that is close to you?
I've realised my mistake, I realised recently that close friends are hard to come by.. But, if we don't open up, they will NEVER come by.. So I've decided to give it a shot.. I want to be close to the friends I have now.. I want them to be a big part of my life.. And if it dies out sooner or later, we'll wait till then to decide how to deal with it, I just hope it wouldn't have to happen =)
If it does, too bad, I'll just have to learn to cope with it and learn how to be stronger
I can't afford to always hide in my shell
And in case you guys wonder what suddenly changed my perspective on friends? Ans: I realised I have great people around me now, and I don't wanna be a dumbo and let them pass, only to regret in the end
Now its really time for bed
Toodles poodles
P.S.: The great people around me.. If you dunno who you are, you ought to be shot, or hanged, or something =P Because, for me to think you're great, you really are =) And if you do not realise it, you need to start to realise how great you really are and how important you are to me as a friend.. And although you guys might be spastic, its still wonderful having you guys around =) I love the world so much more now that I've cleared out my thoughts and feelings =D
no where, at all. 12:51 am
Friday, August 11, 2006
Argh, blogspot is being mean, I can't upload the pics I took today =/
Bah anyways, I won't let that spoil my currently nice mood.. Mood was damn crappy this morning but now its good, thanks to some people =)
I realised at school today that I didn't eat for approximately 35 hours in a row o.0 As in, I ate a sandwich at 10am yesterday and didn't eat till around 9pm today.. I didn't actually realise that until someone asked me what I ate and whether I got food poisoning, lol
I was supposed to be in JB now, but once again, I stayed in school till late to do radio.. Heh, I don't mind, radio sessions are fun and I get to hang out with dar, heather and that silly chindian fella.. Although, the last one isn't much to look forward to -Shrugs- =P
Went to school earlier as planned to keep heather company.. In the end, hang out with Terence, WT, Heather, Mon mon and Tasha.. Waited till around 2.40 and then went to meet dar and go up to class to do ray-dee-oh~
Radio was fun, except for the little hiccups here and there.. I was quite pek chek with all the pro tools shit, but still, not pek chek until I'd snap at people la.. After radio, 4 of us went for dinner at Coffee Bean! On our way there, we were all laughing so hard caaaannn?! More like, dar and me laughing the hardest.. Heather and silly chindian mon mon were the THINGS we were laughing at =X
Mon mon REALLY has endless stupid jokes.. And if you put Heather (Crap) and mon mon (Crappier) together.. The results are like a chemical explosion.. They turn into CRAPPIEST-EST-EST! -.-
All of us had pasta at Coffee Bean, and it was very fun =) Only thing was, 3 things were stopping me from drinking iced coffee..
1. My wallet, NOT ENOUGH MONEY AH WTH! 2. My tummy, it was still a little weird.. AND NOW! For the finale! The worst thing that was stopping me! 3. DARLING =X She's scary, but I know she meant well =D Thanks dar, :wub:
I took a pic of 3 of them, I wanted to post it, but as I said, blogspot is being mean to me.. =/ Also took a pic of our radio DAW as we won't be seeing it till after next sem... I'll try to post them within the next few days if I'm not lazy or busy.. This is the last time 4 of us hang out together on a friday night after radio, so tonight was extra special, and I wanted to take a picture to commemorate it =) Pictures are so fun and so meaningful, I need to start taking more!
And oh, I kinda established that 4 of us are now the Beechy Sisters, w00t! o.0 Yes, I know lamont is a guy, but meh, whatever.. He should feel honoured we treat him as one of us, ok? So shaddap, lamont =P
Its late, I'd better go sleep, gotta wake up earlier tomorrow to go back to JB.. Can't possibly not go back two weeks in a row..
Toodles poodles
P.S.: I might have to change url soon due to some reasons.. I will update you guys on it if I do so
no where, at all. 11:43 pm
Zzz.. Gawd, I feel awful.. I just had some runs again T_T
I still feel bloated and I still feel like puking, despite having had a nice night's rest.. Argh, what the hell is wrong with my tummy? Its still churning and I feel really really frickin awful
Think I won't be in the mood or have the energy for much socialisation today.. I feel weak after those runs in the toilet =/
Ack, I'm supposed to go to school earlier to meet Mon mon and keep Heather company.. Maybe go have lunch with them, but I seriously don't have appetite, I feel sick to the core.. God dammit, why do I always have to fall sick when holidays are near? =(
My tummy is making weird noises, it feels as if my intestines are getting all tangled up and things from my tummy have nowhere else to go except up and out of me T_T
Ughhhhh pain
Toodles poodles
P.S.: To my tummy - I hate j000000! =(
no where, at all. 10:59 am
Thursday, August 10, 2006
I'm feeling better thanks to that piece of sour plum that my aunt told me to eat.. I should be resting, but nooooo I can't sleep T_T I think I'm developing insomnia, I have trouble sleeping every night.. Meh, whatever
I realised how dull my blog was, so today, I'm gonna be special and post some pictures of my classmates that I took today..
Jen, Clar and Mon mon
Mon mon acting gay, wearing Clar's earring
Think I'll only post those few classmates for now.. I'll post more when I snap more pics of others, hehe.. But, I wanna post up pics of things I've been crazy over lately, so here they are..
Heh, Oscar the Grouch
Yeah yeah, I don't have a childhood, can?
TotorosDar is the sibeh dua one (Oh)
Heather is the blue one on the right (Chu)
I'm the teeny weeny white one on Dar's head (Chibi)
Right, had enough of posting pics, I'm gonna go do work
Toodles poodles
no where, at all. 6:33 pm
Ugh, someone kill those people buying waffles please..
I feel like puking already.. The waffle smell is so strong and what's worse, they turned off the air conditioning.. Its so stuffy in here that one can DIE lor..
I've been here in the library for like, 5 hours.. And honestly, smelling the waffles for 5 hours make people sick.. Very sick.. I have a bad headache now and I can feel/hear my tummy churning.. Not to mention, I feel that things are about to come up my throat and out my mouth.. Nasty things that people probably don't wanna see, btw..
And oh, I have lots of people telling me Vincent Ng is gay T_T What the hell is wrong with this world? All the hotter guys are either gay, or they're already attached.. Bah, what the hell...
I was having so much fun earlier with my classmates in the library.. But now everything has toned down and I seriously feel sick..
Someone said something ironic that got me laughing a little.. I mean, how can someone be so insensitive and oblivious to their surroundings?
Lamont is beside me, he's saying, "EH! HI!~ WOOOOOO LALALALALALALALALALAmont"
Ok, enough retardedness from him..
This is bad, Darling is ill and I wanna puke.. Take care, dar.. Take care, self T_T
I think I'll go off now, I need to BREATHE
Toodles poodles
no where, at all. 3:04 pm
Wednesday, August 09, 2006
Argh what the hell?! I was blogging, nearly ending then IE screwed up on me! CRASHED! And then WOO! All gone! WAT... THE... HELL...!~ -.-
As you might've guessed, I'm lazy to type everything again.. So I think I'll just sum up what I was blogging about earlier in a list again (Refer to post titled Sloth)..
1. Felt sick after breakfast at McD's.. Had some runs and wanted to puke
2. Saw some BAD people at McD's that are utter disgraces to society
3. Celebrated Singapore's 41st birthday by slacking at home whole day, w00t
4. Watched NDP and thought, "VINCENT NG IS SOOOOO HOT CAAAANNN?!" :wubs:
5. Hopes to be blessed to dream of Vincent Ng while deep in sleep tonight. Thx.
6. Still is swooning over Vincent Ng's muscles and 6 pecs :wubs:
7. Realises she is swooning over Vincent Ng too much
8. Thinks about writcomm research and radio cue sheet
9. Realised she already did cue sheet and is not in the mood for writcomm T_T
10. Will leave writcomm till tmr and go to SLEEP... To dream of Vincent Ng :wubs:
Alright, that's about it.. I'm too lazy to go on anyways..
Toodles poodles
P.S.: VINCENT NG IS SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO FRICKING HOT! Sorry, couldn't resist the urge to say it again.. And oh, I forgot to mention, he has this shy, innocent-looking face, so more points for him.. He stands at 1 xInfinity points now, btw
no where, at all. 11:19 pm
Tuesday, August 08, 2006
Beechy speech is finally over
I feel relieved and yet a little pissed at the same time
Someone's phone had to ring during our speech and it broke our chain of thoughts
Plus, I forgot some parts, and timing was bad.. We overshot by approximately 2 mins T_T
BUT! Meh, its over, I'm happy and now I don't have to wear those dreadful heels =X
[edit]
I forgot to mention that its the end of speech comm =D Happiness!
Special thanks to darling for tolerating me throughout the entire length of the speech preparation and all that.. Also, for giving me moral support when I needed it.. I so totally <3>
Toodles poodles
P.S.: Dar, you still have to tolerate me for radio =X
no where, at all. 9:58 am
Monday, August 07, 2006
As much as I'd like to go back to RSS after my final assessed speech in school, I'm still in a bit of a dilemma.. I'm gonna be wearing damn formal clothes tomorrow and so, going to TOWN or anywhere for that matter might seem a bit weird.. Ok, not a bit, is VERY weird.. I'd just wanna get home asap to change outta these dreadful formal attire..
Can't really decide whether to go or not.. Will you guys decide for me? T_T Tell me whether I should go or not, vote on the right where the tagboard is, or you could just tell me on msn.. Either way is fine, thanks a lot..
I had a bad morning again.. I woke up earlier to do some stuff and then get ready to go to school to meet darl.. I felt sick and sleepy as usual.. Buses ALWAYS fail me.. Missed my bus AGAIN.. Although I wasn't late.. We went to Atrium to have lunch, but I didn't know what to eat and didn't have much appetite for much food.. I ended up eating a shepard's pie and drinking iced mocha.. Darl ate beef stew noodles.. Surprisingly she ate quite a lot today =X Plus, she made me treat her to drink again -.- Don't really mind, but thing is she keep on bullying me lor -.-
I felt so slackish in library today, although we did completely finalise the slides and all, we didn't really practise.. In the end, we didn't watch movie also, just went to slack at library with terence and wen tong.. Quite a lot of funny/silly stuff happened.. But I won't elaborate because it'll probably take forever.. And I have limited time, I need to practise speech..
Lol when going back, all of a sudden I turned damn "feng sao".. I don't freakin know the word in english.. I know but I forgot.. Anyways, I was like... "Darrrrliiiinnnggg~" repeatedly and I was rubbing my shoulder against her.. Lol she got kinda freaked out and threatened to hit me on the head with her laptop XD I love freaking darling out, just to see what reaction she'd give =X
Maybe I just needed some love, meh =P
Alright, I seriously need to go practise
Toodles poodles
no where, at all. 7:05 pm
Someone told me.. "Don't dwell, life is too short for that"..
I tried, I certainly have.. But its really hard not to dwell on something that has made such a strong impact on you..
Perhaps I was wrong..
Perhaps we weren't as close as I thought..
Perhaps I was getting used all along..
If I wasn't so busy, I woulda gladly went out.. Not like I declined -on purpose-..
Do you even know that I'm struggling?
That I've got many assignments due?
That I'm stressed enough as it is?
Why do you add on to this stress?
Friends aren't what they used to be.. Or supposed to be..
As days go by, people start to reveal what they really are, or what they've turned into.. I expected this to happen, but I did not expect it to be this huge a change.. I'm not used to it.. Neither do I want to get used to it.. Life's not the same without good friends that truly understand you and think like you..
Poly is great and all.. And I love the people that I've met there.. But there is such a system that makes us change classes every year.. I seriously do not want the same thing to be happening again.. I do not want to be so close to someone, only to be separated again in due time.. Its a lousy feeling, I don't want to feel it anymore.. So, pardon me if I'm not opening up too much.. Because as much as I'd like to open up, I'd like to protect myself from this horrible feeling too..
Reluctant as I may be.. But I think I'll keep a distance from others now.. Sometimes getting too close to a person has its risks.. And I don't think I'm bold enough to risk it again.. Once bitten, twice shy
Normal friends are plenty, good friends are rare, best friends have died out and true friends never existed
Toodles poodles
no where, at all. 9:49 am
Sunday, August 06, 2006
Sheeeeeeeeesh! I went shopping for clothes.. And I spent 5 hours looking for one set of clothes T_T Shopping is frickin tiring..
Not to mention, I spent like, 72 bucks on those clothes.. So I'd better get good grades for speech, or I'm gonna flip.. Be kind, Cordelia.. Be kind.. Or else I'll have to try real hard to resist the urge to wring your neck -.-
Argh, I'm gonna have to wear platform shoes on that day.. Damn hard to walk lor -.- -Prays hard that she doesn't fall down or something-
As much as I "adore" speech.. I have this feeling that I'm very unprepared.. And very worried T_T So, ok, enough of blogging, I have to go finalise the slides and practise or whatever shit I gotta do..
Toodles poodles
no where, at all. 9:23 pm
Speech on tuesday and I got NOTHING to wear! Ahhhhh!~ PANIC AH!~
Kns, later better go metro buy... Shoes settled because my cousins got lots of pairs of formal shoes... Now, top and skirt! ARGH!
Toodles poodles
no where, at all. 12:27 pm
Saturday, August 05, 2006
Just wanted to say this because I see SuperBand finals are on now..
SuperBand sucks
In fact, make it that ALL the singing/acting/dancing competitions in Singapore suck.. God damn money making thingys.. I can't believe people actually DO sms in to vote on such stuff -.-
Toodles poodles
no where, at all. 8:46 pm
Weeeee, I'm in school on a saturday afternoon! Now all of you have to worship me because my life is like, totally rulez0rz and i'll pwnz0rz j00 wit mah lazerz, pew pew pew!
That was a sudden outburst of l337 language-ness.. Don't mind me, I'm just too stuffed with McD's and their stupid food..
Anyways, its frustrating because last night when I went to bed.. I suddenly thought of something that I really really really wanted to blog about.. Then when I woke up this morning, weeee, I forgot what it was that I wanted to blog about.. W... T... H...
We got the final outline done.. Now we need to work on slides and practising... But we figured we'd do the slides at home and then meet up again on monday to practise.. After practise, we might go catch a movie or something =D I wanna watch "Click"!
Argh, this stupid darling.. Cannot finish the fries then wanna pack it.. BUT THEN WANT ME TO KEEP! Zzz -.- So yesh, my bag smells of french fries, and I hate it.. Ask her to eat she also don't want.. Then want me bring home, wth -.-
McD's pepper drumlets are nice... BUT they are far too oily and you know... LOTS of those fatty skins that they never remove.. Then when I eat, I gotta spend so much time peeeeeeeling them off and then its not like easy, coz they're all starchy and such.. So in the end my fingers get so damn dirty and sticky with all the skin, eww..
I'll just stick to McNuggets or burgers the next time I go.. Far less complex to eat..
I think I'll stay in school till 4 to accompany darl before she has to go to church.. Since I got nothing to do at home anyways..
I still can't think of the thing I wanted to blog about.. Curses... I guess I'll go off then..
Toodles poodles
P.S.: Darl, even though you're a beech, I still <3>
no where, at all. 2:47 pm
Friday, August 04, 2006
Sigh... I stayed in school till 9+ again today.. I'm not complaining, cause I know its necessary and that if we don't get these assignments done, we're pretty much dead meat..
I'm just glad I'm grouping with darling, that actually is serious about her work.. And not someone else that doesn't give a freaking damn about work.. This way, work gets done pretty nicely.. I admit, I ain't the best worker around, but at least I care enough about my work.. I don't lac one corner play game and let my group mates suffer =)
Darling is right, friends are so totally different from project mates.. I haven't experienced for myself what its like to have non-cooperative group mates yet, so I can't say I speak from experience.. But from what I've seen and heard from the people closest to me.. I'd rather not have such an experience, tyvm..
I just hope we can choose our teammates for the Philippines vacation module.. Cause I seriously hope to do well for it and I'm not going there just for fun.. It will be fun, but people have to learn to differenciate between an actual vacation, and a vacation module.. That's all I'm saying..
Sometimes bitching about something to someone makes you feel so much better.. Keeping it all inside isn't exactly a nice feeling.. Ah well, I'm just so glad that I've got people I can trust to bitch to, and actually know that they feel the same way too.. I love you guys =) If you are one of these people, you'd naturally know I'm talking about you =)
I know there are some people that do not like me.. I mean, I don't expect everyone to like me.. But hey, what makes you think you're oh-so-popular too? At least I'm not a two-faced bitch that acts nice in front of everyone etc.. And I don't pretend to be something I'm not.. And I'm not big mouth enough to spread around everything that someone else tells me.. And I'm not so freaking insensitive.. And I don't talk bad about someone I do not know at all just to irritate someone else..
I guess I'm gonna go off now, I gotta meet darling tomorrow again to do speech.. Some final changes or touch ups and some practising..
Toodles poodles
no where, at all. 11:33 pm
Thursday, August 03, 2006
Today was our final tutorial for SocPsych... Yippee!~ =X Sorry, too excited.. Anyways we had a second assessed tutorial, i.e. presentation.. Thank god for Clarity and Kelly (Yani) being in my group.. Seriously, as Clar said, if it was pair work.. We'd die if we were with him..
Firstly wanna thank Clar because she agreed to do the presentation for me because I had too much work and couldn't finish.. Really thanks a lot Clar, you're a saviour! Secondly wanna thank Kelly because she was sort of like the middlewoman, lol.. Because we refuse to converse with a certain mega huge headphone wearing person, so she helped us to do it XD I so totally adore you both now =P
Managed to rush everything out in time and well, I guess on the whole, it wasn't so bad.. BUT! Fricking boobasnot (refer to headphone wearing person) had to add in totally irrelevant stuff at the last slide, made me have this urge to mark him down... SERIOUSLY! WHO THE HELL PUTS JAPANESE WORDS AND ZIDANE'S HEADBUTT VIDEO IN A PRESENTATION THAT HAS NOTHING TO DO WITH IT?! -Insert swears and obscene sign language here again- I swear, I hate friggin' posers, I sooooooo wanted to punch him.. -.-
Ok, now I feel much better after capslocking one whole sentence and imagining myself beating the shit outta him..
Back to my day.. Today was a "I-am-little-miss-mood-swing" day.. Which means.. Grumpy and frumpy one moment.. Cheery and (quite) nice the next.. Day started off really bad when last night, went to bed around 12.30am and didn't really sleep till 3am.. Don't know why so many things on my mind.. Then when I went downstairs to take bus, my bus just left -.- Anyways, I was in such a frickin bad mood this morning due to all the unfinished work.. I feel so bad, because I sorta threw a tantrum at my aunt and my darling T_T Lol darling was in a bad mood too.. She kinda sensed the tension and said something about both of us not wanting to talk because we're afraid the bad mood would just make everything come out the wrong way then getting into a fight, wee.. I kinda agree, actually.. Bad moods make me into ^-,..,-^
But, as I said, mood swing~ After speech consult, it got a little better.. But I was still considered grumpy.. Then after writcomm consult and finishing up with the presentation.. It got good, I went to a more cheery mood.. At the end of the day, I guess I was back to normal? My normal being super crazy, hyper and lots of lame jokes.. That's normal for me =X
Tomorrow I gotta meet darling earlier to do RADIO.. T_T Dang, can't even rest and take a breather.. Meh, nvm, the thought of holidays coming soon is keeping me going.. I will survive! I will survive! =X Alright, starting to get lame and blabber nonsense..
Toodles poodles
no where, at all. 6:54 pm
Jen, Clar and Mon mon
Heh, Oscar the Grouch
Totoros